I’m not weak. I went to my CrossFit-Box today, and even though it made me to realize that, I’m not weak… I sucked. My performance was horrible.
I really tried to perform well, but for some reason I was way too weak again. The other day, I tried as well, being just as weak. But I won’t bow down, to being weak.
I had to quiet down by myself, and think about this for a while… and as you can imagine, I wasn’t able to find any conclusions. The thoughts going through my mind were quite much like this; “have I trained too hard?”, “am I too hard on myself?” and to close it out; “It really is so, I really AM just weak?!”
As the headline notifies, I changed my mind. I’m not weak. Too bad, that the headline doesn’t notify, what on earth is wrong with me?! A TBI, yes, but I’m can’t blame this on that…
It doesn’t really, even matter what’s making me exhausted this quickly. I just want to be strong, at least as strong as before! How could I do that?
I don’t know, but I’m going to take a few days off, hoping that rest will fix my performance. On Saturday I’ll be CrossFitting again. We’ll be filming it for the mini documentary… so I CAN’T be WEAK!